I've been a single mom now for 9 years. Have been though a lot and would love to share my experiences whether they be success stories or failures. Right now our lives are very chaotic, have only a month left till we are married. This means I have roughly 30 days to catch you up on what's been happening the last 9 years and keep up to date on wedding progess...
First time I met Alex really seems like it was out of a book.
Out with Nick his best friend getting some shopping done, a car pulls up in front of me in the parking lot and Nick replies that this is his best friend he had been telling me about. Looking at Alex through the window had made me shake, sweat and gave me butterflies like I had just rode an extreme rollercoaster. My hands were visibly shaking Nick asked if I was ok, I reached out my hand and he touched it and looked back up at me. What was going on here? I've never had this type of reaction with anyone ever and I hadnt even talked to him yet. With my 7 month old in the back seat it was seeming like we were heading into a nerve wercking shopping trip.
We met up with Alex before entering the store, he spoke, my heart melted. All this going on and I seiously looked like a bum that day! Which just added to the anxiety I had welling up inside of me. He was well dressed and had a shaved head (LOVE guys that look good in a shaved head) he was articulate but not snooty. Heading into the store Alex had my mind racing....
Insanely shy, cute and quite physcially advanced, these were some of the qualities of my daughter Rachel. She wouldnt even go to people she had known since she was born. Just how she was. Rachel's little legs held her up very well, and she walked very early on. Picking up random items in the store then placing them on the bottom of the cart, she always had a look of accomplishment on her looking up at me as she grabbed the rail at the bottom of the shopping cart. To my surprise she didnt mind these new people that were accopmaning us. With an inquisitive look she examined them, they were both quite tall Nick about 6 ft even and Alex 6'4", in utter amazement Rachel held up her hand and reached for Alex's finger. During that trip if Alex ever left Rachels side she'd look at me and say in her little voice, 'friend?' with her shoulders up to her ears and arms extended uppward.
Is this possible? Her biological dad has been mostly out of her life besides the occasional 2am drunk banging on th door episodes. Now in a matter of about an hour we were both really into this guy. Like I said out of a story....
But that was just how we met.
The next 6-7 years will be in next post...
